I haven’t written in a few weeks, because I really have not had much to say, I’ve been feeling quiet low in myself and didn’t want to depress you all. Anyway I have decided a few things – first thing is dealing with the impending return of the ex, the one who broke my heart into a million pieces. I have put a few pounds on recently, mainly because of an illness I didn’t realise, I was very skinny as a child, teenager and up to about 25. I could eat anything and I didn’t put a pound on I didn’t count calories, exercise or weigh myself so as I’ve got older and stared to put weight on I have struggled with the concept I have never wanted to be a food obsessive but now the time has come.
I have 3 weeks to look fabulous, just to show him what he lost, I have a dress it may be a little shorter than I usually wear but it’s cute and not tarty but that means I have to lose a little tummy and make sure my butt and my legs are looking worthy. I don’t know if I can do it in 3 weeks but I can try. I have started working out which is hard for me and quite frankly hurts but what I have discovered is that since I’ve started – granted it’s only been a week but my appetite has shrunk and I crave healthy food. Maybe this could be a break through; I only hope it has the desired effect.
The second thing is that I have decided that I really need to get out of this town. I know I have said this before and even further back before ever saying it on here it has been flying through my head at random intervals for years, but I really, really, really want to actually do it. I feel like I’m suffocating so I’ve started applying for jobs, anywhere, although they jobs may be a little out of my league if I actually land one the only reason for not taking it and leaving would be stupidity.
So for the next few weeks I’m focussing on change, it may be a long road and by the end of it I might be very hungry but lets just see what happens. I hope one day I’m writing about a big move but I guess for now I need to be patient.
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